Butterflies
I want to start off this blog by saying that I like mind games. I don’t know .. I find them to be interesting. If someone is playing mind games with me, I just know. If you play mind games with me, dear stalker, I will know you’re playing mind games with me. This is just a heads up ….
Funny because when I was single back in my dinosaur years, I didn’t enjoy this much. The girls that liked me, LOVED playing this. Every girl that liked me LOVED playing mind games. They liked to the point where it became extremely difficult to ever reach out to them. Then one day, someone told me this:
“In a land of jibber jabber, the kangaroos wear tutus and speak fluent shampoo.”
yeah …
hm …
eh ….
Maybe not this quote?
Let’s start over … i’m having some sort of “Carne Assada” brain reflexes as I type this stuff. 100% sure someone fermented wine while cooking this.
The girls … ok let’s go .. every girl that liked me LOVED playing mind games with me. They liked to the point where it became extremely difficult to ever reach out to them. Then one day, someone told me this:
“The thrill of the chase makes the victory that much sweeter! She's not playing hard to get; she's just hard to forget. Sometimes the right person is worth waiting for, even if they seem hard to catch! Dear friend, Whatever comes easy won't last long, and whatever lasts long won't come easy. You’re not just anybody!”
My kids asked me this question when I took them out at the mountain:
“What if someones besides mom likes you?”
I started laughing.
You know, kids they have this thing that they will make you laugh and cry at the same time by making you a lot of nonsense questions out of nowhere.
It’s usually so random and out of the blue you know? haha
I was sitting on the grass thinking about how I’m gonna put my office together. My kids started sleeping over there and it’s pure chaos at this point. I was thinking: “This used to be my favorite spot in our home till they started bringing their mattresses in there” - I thought.
“Did girls like you before marrying mom?” - they asked me.
“Actually … hm … yes … . .. . why?” - I said.
“Because some girls like Gabriel” - my daughter said.
“Yeah it’s normal. Gabe is a handsome boy and he will be a handsome man when he grows up.” - I responded.
“But what if someone still likes you now?” - she said.
“hm … this is pretty random …. Who would be this person, Abi?” - I said.
“I feel like there’s someone out there that still likes you a lot dad” - she said.
“Who’s gonna like a 40 year old man with three kids and funny accent, Abigail?” - I said.
“I don’t know dad! I just think it’s almost impossible for someone to not like you” - she said.
We both started laughing so bad at this.
“Abi, I’m sorry to say there’s no girls at this point. If there’s any, I’m clueless.” - I said.
While driving back home, I started thinking about the process of getting what we want in life. I think she was messing with me. My daughter likes to play a lot. I hope she was cheesing me! If not, this still got me a lot to think about, besides putting the office together somehow.
When a man is in hot pursuit for a woman (if he is really a man and not a boy), he won’t feel intimidated. He will thrive to get this woman’s heart. Right after that, he will initiate a series of dates to get her heart. Nothing will be considered 100% guarantee until he puts a ring on that finger and this is where all the excitement begins.
When I was single, I liked to feel the vibe of every part of the process and I was never rushing. After receiving this amazing revelation that: “Whatever comes easy won't last long, and whatever lasts long won't come easy”, I actually begun enjoying seeing girls turning their back to me. The attraction somehow exponentially grew after the attempted rejection. I stopped getting into easy girls. I felt like if there was nothing to fight for, this was unattractive to me.
I remember when I was dating my wife. She was super hard to conquer. She liked me but she ignored me like I didn’t even exist. It took me months to get her phone number. This was very entertaining to me as a man that loves new adventures. Every day was like a new exciting episode of a tv show I was watching. “What is today going to bring me?” - I constantly thought.
At that time we were only using MySpace to communicate. Anna was responding my messages with a few lines.
When I perceived that Anna was only using MySpace to talk to me and refused to give me her phone number, I came up with a strategy. I thought: “well … this girl only talks to me on this MySpace. I want something more serious and she is refusing to talk to me over the phone, I gotta come up with a plan. What if I break the main system of communication between us two? Would I force her to look for an alternative way of communication? If she is interested, she will run after me. It can’t be that I’m the only one running after her all the time. If she’s not interested, then whatever …”
So I deleted my MySpace for good and waited for a few days.
A few days had passed and for my surprise … Anna sent me a text message on my phone! Anna managed to get my phone number somehow and sent me a text message!
At that moment when this happened, I learned that I was a bad ass strategist.
Years had passed, and as I used my mind for strategizing, I realized that I could overcome any hard, chaotic, stressful, and delicate situations if I only put my thoughts to work. This is an ability God gave me and to be super freaking honest with you … I have no idea how I acquired this: I have the ability to get out of any sort of impossible situation.
While dating Anna, I liked that she was hard to conquer. I liked that she did that because I begun liking what was difficult. What is hard to conquer! That somehow showed me that the prize is big. Anna sometimes treated me like a rag during that time prior to dating. She liked to pretend like she didn’t like me and she didn’t even care for me. Like … I was nothing.
Somehow … that turned me on.
I saw that as an exciting adventure.
When I turned 22, I became this type of guy that the more you beat, the more interesting it got. Little by little I started becoming not easily offended. If you mistreat me, I’ll probably talk to you like nothing has ever happened.
It’s funny that when we have a goal and we have a clear vision of what we want, we will just FIGHT for it.
You need to know what you want to have in life. Just so when you pray, you bring it up to God. Some people go like: “I don’t like Shopping grocery lists with God!” …
But isn’t interesting that everybody that approaches God in prayer with these “grocery lists” style of prayers … always get what they want from God?
Why does this happen that people that don’t have the “grocery list” prayers, always have something lacking in their lives? and this something lacking, is always something dead important?
Listen to this: If there’s a want, there’s a need. If there’s a need, there’s a desire. If there’s a desire, there’s assurance. If there’s assurance, there’s a want.
Now, if you don’t know what you want, there’s no need. If there’s no need, God cannot supply.
In order for God to supply that need of yours, He wants you to be sure on what you want.
You gotta want something!
There’s a time in the life of every believer, that if you’re walking in line with God, He can give you anything that you want.
When you’re operating on God’s delights … well let me tell you this … If you’re literally living his perfect will to your life, He will give you whatever you have in your heart. It doesn’t matter what that is. If you’re really walking with God in purity, you can ask whatever, He will give it to you. He will give it to you because He trusts that you know what you’re asking. Have a clear vision on what you want!
If you’re falling in love with your heart, bring this feeling to God and ask Him what He thinks about it: “God, I have this feeling, this is what’s going on .. what do you think about it? Could you please tell me how you see this? Could you please tell me what you think?”
He will tell you.
Sometimes, what might seem wrong in our view, might not be wrong before the Lord.
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails." Proverbs 19:21
You need to ask God what is His purpose behind what’s going on with your heart. Because you might be coming through something, that God himself is performing. Remember Mary?
The funny thing about Mary being pregnant with the Holy Spirit, is that there was no teaching whatsoever from the pharisees teaching that a woman could be pregnant from a deity. God was performing a miracle that violated human theology lol
If God needs to fulfill a prophecy in your life that He himself promised you .. well .. He’s capable to do pretty much anything, no kidding. He is even able to take away some elements out of someone’s hand to give it to you instead. He will perform a divine intervention for the fulfillment of prophecies He gave you.
That’s why it’s very important to pay close attention to whatever feeling, passion, love you’re coming through right now. This might be a way of God trying to communicate with you, that He is with you. Blessings in disguise!
Something that initially seems unfortunate or challenging may actually turn out to be a positive or beneficial thing in the long run. It suggests that what appears to be a difficulty or setback might, in fact, lead to unexpected advantages or blessings. In essence, it reflects the concept of finding silver linings or positive outcomes in situations that may not seem favorable at first glance.
Do not hide your feelings from the Lord!
Whatever you’re coming through right now, present it before God and ask for his honest opinions. Pray this: “What do you think about this God? I’m coming through this … what do you think?”
STOP PRAYING:
“GOD, WHY AM I COMING THROUGH THIS?!”
He will reveal to you. He will talk to you. And don’t be surprised, if you find out He’s okay to give you what your heart is currently burning for right now. You may think these feelings you have are wrong, but the Lord might have a plan, and you don’t even know how.
Whatever you’re coming through right now, present it before God. Always ask for God’s opinions. Never be afraid to ask Him.