Decisions

I just realized I didn’t write anything in 2024… and today is January 13, 2025. Did I unknowingly enter and leave a sabbatical? Well… anyhow!

Out of all days, I’ve chosen to write on January 13th. Mystically speaking, this number is often associated with chaos. However, here and there, it might signify something good… somewhere… in some sort of alternate universe… I hope. Honestly, I hate this number. =/

That said, my mother-in-law was born on September 13th, and she’s a wonderful person. So, I don’t know… this number 13 is very controversial. Sometimes, it might actually represent something good, depending on the situation.

So, maybe it means I’m rising out of chaos? Who knows?

Truth is that I enjoy writing. It makes me feel good. It’s like a channel I use to release things from my system. Somehow, it makes me feel better when I’m too stressed out and I’m hella stressed right now.

You know, as we enter the new year, many people like to come up with resolutions. But I had some time to reflect on this back in November, I think, and I came to the conclusion that I only needed one resolution. And this resolution was …

To become Rafael Yeshaya.

That was my only goal.

In my mind, Rafael Yeshaya is the best version of myself. I envision this version as someone great, and I don’t feel like I’m there yet.

To be great, you need to be surrounded by people who appreciate, value, admire, and uplift you and while looking back on 2024, I realized I poured so much into so many people, and almost all of them were ungrateful and unthankful. I felt like many took me for granted. The breaking point for me was my birthday.

I have serious issues with my birthday. I know my mom tried to abort me, and when people who are special to me purposely forget it, I cut them off. It’s game over. For so many years, I’ve dealt with so many types of individuals. If you’re not careful, you’re going to be taken advantage of. To protect my heart—because at that point, I don’t know the true intentions of these people anymore—I just cancel everyone who raises red flags.

Also, regarding ministries, I’ve stopped donating money everywhere. I’m just focused now on those who actually appreciate me. I never hear this anyways. So, that’s it. If anyone’s mad at me for saying this, they’re probably not appreciating me anyway, lol. I’ve tried to help a few by sharing ideas and pointing out serious issues in their stuff, but most of them just ignored my emails and efforts. I’ve blessed so many ministries with so many presents, journals and etc and never heard: “THANK YOU”. Never got a single email saying: “I’ve received your gift and I appreciate you, thank you”. We put so much effort, crafting, arranging ornaments, running to the postal office, shipping, getting stuck in traffic for hours, to be depreciated for no reason! So yeah, I canceled them too. I’m on beast mode this year. I’m on the loose.

Some ministries and businesses are losing because they are not saying with words how much they appreciate their own.

I’m taking this so seriously that even with donations, I’m only helping people who are actually willing to partner with me. And when I say partner, I don’t mean the usual “Hey, we need your money, help us out!” where I keep giving to their causes and then end up sucking my fingers when it’s my turn to ask for help.

How I feel this year, winning every enemy in 2025

Burning Bridges

You also have to do the same thing. Focus only on those who appreciate you. Stop wasting so much energy on people who don’t value you. You’re not a dog! You’re a human being! Memorize the people who value you right now because there will come a time when your situation will change. You might become famous and successful, and the same people who don’t value you now won’t value you in the future. Burn bridges with those who aren’t helping you become the best version of yourself. Stick with those who admire, appreciate, and value you. Don’t lose your focus! Be selective.

I’ve started becoming more selective with everyone at this point. I pick up the phone only for specific people. I’m not answering text messages from everyone anymore. I’m officially following up on calls only with certain people. When people send me DMs, I respond to only a few. Regarding emails, I’ve stopped answering everyone. Sometimes, people write to me, and if I take longer to respond, it’s because I’m assessing whether this person deserves a second chance or not. So if it takes a few days, it’s not because I’m busy; it’s because I’m processing everything. (And yes, I’m hella busy, but we can always make time for those who are important to us.)

Why am I doing this?

Because to become everything God wants you to be, you can’t waste your time on people who don’t value your purpose, respect your journey, or align with your vision. So enough! Screw all the people who just want to suck up my time and take my money. Screw it! There were just too many in 2024!

2025 Phoenix

2025 is the year I chose to rise from the ashes. This is the year I chose to focus strongly on what I want. And get this—I always get what I want. When I want something, I have it. I’m extremely determined and ambitious. I don’t take "no" for an answer. I’d rather pretend I’m poor and live a simple life just so I can achieve my goals. (In fact, that’s exactly what I’m doing right now, lol. I’m living a very simple life with money in the bank, just so I can achieve my goals. It’s actually cool pretending to be poor.)

You must have goals too. You can’t just be someone who’s content with a job. Listen to me—I’m a pastor and a life coach. I work with people daily, and most of them are not happy with their jobs. Many of them make anywhere from $8,000 to $15,000 a month, and yet they still feel unfulfilled. One day, you’ll retire, and your 401k won’t save you. Inflation will keep increasing, and who knows what the world will look like 20–30 years from now.

This means we need to take our lives very seriously right now. Being a full-time mom, at this point, is not enough. You need to think of ways to live out your destiny and fulfill your purpose. You’re called to ignite a fire in someone’s heart, not just your children’s. God didn’t place you here just to live a nice life at home taking care of your kids. There will come a moment—mark my words—when you’ll feel unfulfilled. That’s because God has a bigger plan for you.

This is you and me, like a phoenix, rising out of the ashes in 2025

If you stay content with what you have, reality will hit one day, and it’s going to hurt. Wake up now. Stop thinking you have all the time in the world—you don’t! You don’t know what tomorrow holds. You’re not God. Focus on doing everything in your power to become great. Think about how to achieve a level of greatness where, even after you’re gone, your children will carry on your legacy. Build something that speaks on your behalf after you’re no longer here. I’m talking about money, businesses, ministries, non-profits, books, podcasts, and so on.

Cut ties with everything that holds you back. Burn bridges with people who don’t value you. Strengthen relationships with those who uplift you. Choose to become YOUR best self in 2025! DO IT. Execute it.

God doesn’t make trash.