Single Dad Days
So … I’m a single dad now.
Can you imagine this?
I mean … this is something that I never thought would ever happen. Life is made by moments for realz.
But it’s going to be for a week lol
My wife went to visit her sister in California and took Leo with her. I’ll be in charge of our other two kiddos in the meanwhile.
I thought it to be cool to share my days here in journaling style. Let’s go:
Day 1 September 27
12 pm: I dropped my wife with Leo at the airport and took all the stuff out of the truck and prayed and let them go. When I came back from Florida I was like: “Someone needs some time off in this family u know … what if I pay her a Flight ticket and send her to stay for a couple days with her sister (that also got a new born baby) ?” I shared with my wife about this idea and she got fired up. “Are you sure you’ll be able to handle the kids and do all the chores?” I said: “pfff …. piece of cake honey … I was built for such a time as this”.
Later in the afternoon: “really don’t wanna cook anything … and these kids already had lunch in their school…” I thought. So why not stopping by IKEA and let IKEA make me some good lunch? so that’s what i did and I ate there. On my way out … I remembered they had ice cream yogurt. So I took that one also. From there I opened my bag to get my laptop and made some research on my computer. I have a system that decodes names to find clues of the future. This system that I use is not precise. It doesn’t give me specific information like birthday, people’s addresses and none of that. This system provides me riddles. I still need to use my prophetic discernment to find out what that riddle means. It’s like this .. for instance … someone has a unique name … a name that is totally different … well .. like my name … I take my full name and i put it in the system. My system decodes my own name and gives me pages of riddles. Usually, on the first 10 riddles that are on the first page, are going to give me spot on clues of events that are going to take place. So if you ask me what my hobby is like .. well .. I don’t have a hobby … but I do like to do this stuff a lot. My hobby nowadays is to make sure everybody in this family is being taken care of.
From there on: I went to pick up the kids and started speaking Portuguese. When my wife is in the car we speak english, Portuguese and Russian. But because they are growing up, it tends to lean more towards the English language. So when I picked up Abi first, I straight up started speaking in Portuguese. She was responded me in English, which annoyed me a lot. I kept pressing in and was firm on speaking Portuguese. She kept on answering English. Then I picked up Gabe, and he came talking in English, I was speaking Portuguese with him too.
And He answered me in English. (grrrr)
So .. just to make sure they were still understanding what I was saying, I said: “Let’s do this … I’m gonna speak in Portuguese here … and everything I say… You gotta translate it to English.” So, it was quite of a trip and I was speaking Portuguese a lot … for my sanity and for the sake of my parents and the legacy of this family … they understood everything and flawlessly translated everything that I said from Portuguese to English.
wow .. that’s it … I felt like I made my day. My mother when she gets here to visit us this year … won’t have an argument with me. The language of my royal bloodline is preserved. That got me some bone chilling moment maaaaan
5 pm: “are you guys hungry?” i asked the kids. They said: “kinda …”
So … if it’s kinda …. “Let’s have soup” I said. “It’s easy to make, you’re not so hungry, I’m not as hungry either, it’s fall season now and it’s cold and I hate sickness … why not having a bunch of veggies in a huge pan and eating it?”. They loved the idea … yes .. my kids are weird … they eat beets, tomatoes, avocados, spinach, raw fish, and do you know the cool thing about all this? I didn’t beg them too much to eat it. Every time we had dinner at home, we sat at the table, I put this large bowl of spinach right in front of me and started eating it. They saw me and their mom eating it and started repeating after us. Even to this day, they eat pretty much everything.
5:49 PM: I’m heading out now to Dollar tree to buy some disposable plates and silverware with napkins. No way in this world, I’ll be doing these dishes. From there, we’re going to the mountain and pray together and enjoy the sunset together. I got a set of cards with a bunch of questions and I’ll ask them a lot. I gotta find out what these kids are doing in their school and who their new friends are and now dang it … a new worry … I have to make sure Gabriel is doing his homework.
6:21 PM: I got a few text messages and DMS asking me if I’m still married because these awesome peeps simply didn’t click the link on my Instagram Story. I simply put in “I’m a single dad now” with an arrow pointing to the link, and these fellas didn’t click the link and imagined the worst LOL Funny thing is that some fake accounts sent me DMS asking me If I was planning to remarry. WOW … I didn’t know I WAS ALREADY on some women’s WAITING LIST ?!?! or they were on the waiting list somehow … that themselves created … oh my goodness… I’m so blown away haha My brother told me I was totally some women’s SECOND OPTION out there. PLAN B! ma ma ma ma ma maaa
8:32 PM: Our house is clean. Chores done. Had an awesome moment with praying and asking questions to each other about our lives at the park earlier and the kids have brushed their teeth, put on their pijamas and are going to sleep now.
I’ve shared with my brother about the system. He said he could not get anything for him. I said that when the name is too common you’ll need to blend your name with the date of birth plus something more specific like the city you live in currently or something like that.
This system decodes names to find clues of the future, like I said earlier. This system that I use is not precise. It doesn’t give me specific information like birthday, people’s addresses and none of that. This system provides me riddles, like pages and pages of riddles. I still need to use my prophetic discernment to find out what every riddle means. It’s like this .. for instance … someone has a unique name … a name that is totally different … well .. like my name … I take my full name and i put it in the system. My system decodes my own name and gives me pages of riddles. Usually, on the first 10 riddles that are on the first page, are going to give me spot on clues of events that are going to take place.
I believe that God put in some secrets in our own names.
Day 2 September 28
Woke up at 5 am, took a cold shower, put my bed together and cooked breakfast for everyone but they just woke up at 6:45 am. I became this dad that wakes up everyone in the early morning with a bunch of noise all over the house.
Dropped off everybody at school and went to meet my friend Jason at the coffee shop. We had a great time together. I shared with my friend He is a God’s general and I believed so many other generals would come out of him! Jason and his wife are a POWER COUPLE! He wanted to know what my life as coach looked like and we just had a great moment. I said: “I’m like Hitch but instead of helping people find love, I make christians entrepreneurs.” He got fired up!
From there, I grabbed something to eat at the mountain. The lady at the counter helped me out and I left. Let me tell you this … there’s nothing more confusing than having a lesbian flirting with you. “oh! maybe I’m not lesbian anymore!” I don’t know .. that’s the vibe I got. I think I almost got her reset to her default settings! hahaha
Gladly I got my food and went to the mountain to have lunch time with my buddy The Holy Spirit.
That was really precious …
When I got at the mountain the sky was shut. I stood firm on the ground, opened my hands, raised my arms, closed my eyes and said: “So good to be with you here my sweetest friend, The Holy Spirit! I came to have lunch with you!” and I adored Him.
The sky opened and the sun shined! I took a pic to register this moment. For me, this was a sign that God was with me :) He was saying: “I’m going down there to have lunch time with you too!”
This beautiful moment when God came to have lunch with me
I was eating and sharing my life with Him and He spoke to me. Some very interesting privileged information about it’s not your business and from there .. I came down the mountain to work on my biz.
Day 3 September 29
I thought these kids would give me a hard time during the absence of their mom but everything is doing fine so far. Today I woke up late.
At 6:45 am i woke up and went to the shower and I was very upset at this. I felt like I lost my morning.
The kids are doing pretty much everything I’m telling them to do with their chores and home chores. It’s incredible how the presence of a father really makes a difference. I tell them to clean up their mess or something, they don’t want to play around, they just do it.
The dishes are always clean, nobody is messing with me by threatening me with whining! As a matter of fact, when they notice they are about to whine for silly things, i just give them a look and they immediately stop it.
Yesterday night, they behaved so good that i went like: “let’s watch a movie while having dinner?” they went like: “YES YES DADDY!! THAT’S AWESOME!!!”. They really wanted to watch the Original 1990 Ninja Turtles, so i got to my amazon prime and got this one.
We had a great time! We laughed a bunch. They now want to watch the Ninja Turtles 2: the secret of the ooze. We’ll probably watch it tonight after our sundown prayer time.
God spoke to me while watching Ninja Turtles yesterday night. I saw Master Splinter helping the orphan kids regain their identity and The Holy Spirit talked to me. Master Splinter reprogrammed their mindset regarding “Family Values” and “Life Purpose”. At that moment, they realized they just had been used by Shredder. Shredder was acting like their Father. He actually said that multiple times during the movie. isn’t interesting how the 80s and 90s movies were packed with life purpose, family values and identity? The movie was literally giving a message that without a father you won’t go anywhere in this life.
In my spirit man, God spoke to me. I heard: “I want you to do the same thing. This generation needs Father Power. I gave you plenty of that. Would you be The Father for the orphan?”
That really moved me. I feel like I want to be a mentor for this generation. I want to be a mentor for whoever approaches and comes to me. For people that God will send my way.
11:09 PM: We finished watching star wars A New Hope while eating pizza with sparkling water. That was around 10 pm. My kids loved it. My kids don’t give me so much of a hard time but I kinda understand now why most men marry right away after losing their spouse somehow. Raising kids by yourself is a lot of responsibility. If you ever see a man that lost their spouse while battling a disease or something like that, and you see them marring again like .. 3 or 6 months after that, do not judge, for realz. My wife is out for three days now and I feel lonely as heck. Today I’m sure I, personally speaking, can’t live without a woman in my life.
Day 4 September 30
What a great time at multnomah falls with my wife’s family and the kids. We had an amazing time jogging and eating :) I still woke up at 5 AM and did breakfast and all that. I feel like I’m ready to have more kids, you know? but I don’t think it’s going to happen.
God has been speaking a lot to me lately during my loneliness. Yesterday morning at the mountain, I was teaching my daughter on how to hear God. Also teaching her on how to see visions. While training her, I had a vision myself.
I saw a fire beam splitting the scene in half. Everything became as red as the fire and it was burned down. The fire beam turned into a tornado and this tornado was moving everything upside down. Prior to this vision, The Lord gave me and my daughter, two bible keys: I Peter 3:9,10 and Isaiah 41:10.
I understood with this vision that a series of chaotic events that will bring transition are about to happen in my family. Something that will bring alignment and correction. A “START OVER”. But I should be at peace because He affirmed me that He would be with me.
Well .. tomorrow I’m going to take my kids to the church. I love the pastors, they are my friends, i love the people .. i’ve been going to this church with my family for about 3 years now … but I feel so disconnected. I don’t have yet this sense of belonging … as a matter of fact … I feel very disconnected to the state of Oregon in general. I Don’t feel accepted. I have to drag myself to church every Sunday because my kids need to see in me that I go to church on Sundays just so they have a role model. But tomorrow i’m going to a church closer to where I live. Sundays are the days i take to wake up late at 8 am and going to this church in Vancouver, WA without my wife, doesn’t make sense.
I’ve been praying and fasting and God told me to remain here on the west coast for now. I went to Florida september this year, and while praying in tongues at a special chapel … I clearly heard the voice of The Holy Spirit. I heard Him so clearly … He spoke to me. He said: “I’m hiding you in Oregon. There’s a purpose. Stay in Oregon for now.” And other things ..
Honestly speaking … I now know why I have to stay here … even though I feel isolated and disconnected.
Day 5 October 1st
What izz up stalkers! if you’re reading till here … congratulations! You earned your Diamond Stalker Badge! I’m so proud of you!
And guess what ….
You’re probably a woman!
No way in this world a man would read this much.
I feel like if my wife wanted to leave Leo with me plus the other two kids, I would be able to handle everybody. I easily wake up at 5 AM, make breakfast for everyone, dress up and stay up and ready for the whole day. I think it’s because of the cold showers in the morning plus … a top secret information will be shared tonight … I stop eating around 8 pm at night. This probably helps me gain too much energy … not sure!
Today we went to church … the church we went in here in Portland … is totally not my style. This church is so cold … so cold spiritually I mean … if a penguin went to attend this church … the penguin would get a cold.
Sorry for being a little graphic here!
And worse … they didn’t provide any child care. So i had to stay with my kids with me seated by my side at the service. I still did my thing you know … I closed my eyes, did an effort to sense the Lord’s presence in the room, raised my hands and guess what?
I actually felt His presence. Even though the service was not as great. The Spirit of The Lord is everywhere!
From the service I took my kids to eat sushi with me at the restaurant and we had a blast! They eat A LOT! For a moment, I was concerned about the bill. The sushi place is one of those that people call: “conveyor belt sushi”. Sushi dishes are placed on a conveyor belt that moves around the restaurant, allowing us to select our favorite dishes as they pass by. Each dish is served on a small plate, and we can take the plates we want and enjoy the sushi.
My kids were literally like … picking one plate up after the other and swallowing every sushi like animals.
I was like .. “ahhhhh …. hmmmmm …. guys … oh my Gosh ..I wasn’t ready for this …. “ Cuz in my head they were still little kids you know? But not anymore … heee ….
There was a lady coming to our table to serve our drinks and time to time she came in to make sure we were okay. She was like a mother to us. But she was younger than me, she was still in her 20s. I just don’t understand why she came by so much. She kept coming and trying to initiate conversations and stuff like that.
I think she was bored or something haha Then at the end she asked me how I liked everything and she gave me the bill and I smiled and thanked her for being so nice. She stopped and was looking at me for some reason.
Maybe my face was dirty or something? I honestly don’t know why she was looking at me so much and smiling. Then, she was like … “you know what” … she took back my bill and started crossing out a bunch of stuff we ate lol I dunno what happened! Then she smiled and said: byeeeeee and I was like … “thank you?”
The girls around this region we live are just so nice. A simply smile can make their day somehow. Just other day was the same thing, I got a free drink at Starbucks because I smiled to the lady at the register and acknowledged her for being so kind.
The girls at the Russian bakery know the chocolate I eat! Last week, I was looking for this specific European chocolate and I was checking to see if I could find it on the shelves but it got sold out. Then I picked a white chocolate and went to the register. This Russian girl was like: “I saved your favorite chocolate!” I was like: “No way, you didn’t! stop it!” Then she went in to the back of the store and came back running with the chocolate I like!
From the sushi place, we went to the mountain, prayed and then came back home, put our home together, cleaned up a lot of stuff and then we watched Star Wars The Return of Jedi. Today we finished watching the whole original trilogy. For dinner, I found some samosas with kibes, warmed them up and we ate them with apple cider juice.
Well! I hope you have a good night .. whoever is reading this :)
Day 6 October 2nd
Woke up late today around 7 am. still managed to make breakfast and got everybody on time for school. Daughter was a little moody for no reason lol (women)
Went to the gym and from there, I had a meeting, from the meeting I had my breakfast around 11 am. Now It’s 11:37 pm and I still can’t get to bed and sleep because I need to review my book before authorizing the publisher to print it. They will send me a first hard copy by next week. I’m gonna ask for the first copies in hard cover and send them to people that are special to me. If you reading this … are one of the first ones to get the copy of my first book ever written by the end of november 2023 … you’re special to me.
I’ve been thinking lately … Kinda wondering … if someone appreciates me. This is so random bahaha But i’ve been thinking.. if someone genuinely admires me and misses me. If there’s a person that somehow thinks of me. And thinking of me without me jumping on social media. I miss the time when I was a teen, and I was so involved with God’s works and ministry … that I was just so sure my life added value to everyone around me. Here where I live, I feel so useless. I hate this feeling. In my children, I find my sense of belonging that my soul lacks so much. I love hearing from them, that I am their hero. That my presence near them, represents the whole world to them. That I have an invaluable price.
I have a lot of accomplishments and achievements, don’t get me wrong. But … none of this for me matters.
As a matter of fact, you won’t hear me mentioning about my achievements and success as much. I literally walk on my daily life as if I have none of that. Sometimes I even forget it. Seriously … It’s embarrassing when I do it! But I don’t allow my achievements and success to get to me. I do my best to live my life as if I have nothing.
For me … it’s because it really doesn’t matter. I’m just happy that my children are my oasis. Thoughtful about the future.
Tonight around 8:43 PM a conviction took over my spirit. God gave me this conviction. A conviction that He was going to shift things. I was seated, not even thinking about all this .. when all of a sudden, this downed on me. I can’t explain it. It just struck me. I then had this assurance. There’s one revelation that keeps me haunting … and tonight I became sure … that this was really from The Lord.
Day 7 October 3rd
It’s that time!
That’s the time when I update my private investigators on how my day went!
YES LADY! I’M TALKING ABOUT YOU :)
There’s no way to find out who’s reading my blogs so you know. I also don’t have any tools or systems that can help me identify the traffic on clicks and stuff like that on this blog. I’m literally writing it because I like it.
However, this doesn’t keep me from sensing things. I sense in my spirit that you are probably reading this … probably like now for instance .. haha
Today my day was lame. Someone blessed my kids with new beds and I had to set apart their old ones. I don’t recall having lunch. I got a sushi burrito from the grocery and that’s what I ate in the morning. But in the afternoon, I just drank a cup of matcha, stopped by the Russian bakery and got a chocolate bar. Then, I got to my computer to work. I worked on my business and then I didn’t go to gym, bummer. My back hurts like crazy for some reason. I just hope it’s not kidney stones lol
It’s really awesome to be an entrepreneur. You have plenty of time. The bad side … is that if you do a bad management of your time, you’re screwed. You won’t see a penny by the end of the month. At the beginning for me … this was super hard. I was wasting my time like crazy. I rented an office back then, and I spent my morning playing video games and eating food I got at the restaurant. There was a coffee shop downstairs of this building, and I was always there. I made friendship with the owner and we used to talk a lot.
7 PM: I stopped eating at 5 pm. I had my dinner and that was pretty much it. I went to the mountain to pray and I took the kids with me. That was around 18sh or so. Then at 7 pm, i served the kids dinner and I was seated with them reading the bible.
Because they cleaned up the house and helped me put things together, I got them a treat. I bought them some french fries at Five guys. (Of course they didn’t have only that for dinner :P)
At the table … God gave me a word. There’s no words for me to explain what I've been feeling … and discerning … But i sense something very strong … I keep receiving this impression in my spirit that something very serious is going to happen soon.
I’m thoughtful about this. I called my mom just other day, and she told me that she has been having a weird feeling herself. I don’t like when my mom has these vibes … because she is usually spot on with that.
Whoever is reading this, please, just pray for me and my family :)
Day 8 October 4th
he hey ! :) we’re back here secret friends! We’re here where everything started … uhh
Today I woke up at 4 am. I had to review a few things about my book and my editor with the publisher are on the east coast, eastern time. 3 hours ahead of me. So I had to get this done. I woke up at 4 AM and got it done. Then I went back to bed around 5:30sh and woke up at 7:30 AM. This screwed up with my hours of sleep big time. Everybody got late in school today. I thought I could rely on my kids but they woke up later than me lol
Here is the thing of being a good father … if you move, your family moves. If you don’t move, no one moves. They look at you and observe you and copy you.
I’ve been driving a lot today doing family stuff and I’ve seen ambulances, police squads, car accidents and all sort of odd stuff happening all over the city.
When I did Uber, a few years ago, there was a girl that got into my car and she told me that when we have full moon, something happens with the levels of magnetism in our planet that make people go cuckoo. I didn’t believe that at first… but after observing a few full moons and how the transition from full moon to something else occurs, I can tell you that this actually DOES make sense. Don’t believe me ? Go check the next FULL MOON in your calendar and mark this day. Then, take this day to observe all the people around you. Take your conclusions from there. As the moon transitions from full moon to something else, the world goes nuts.
You know .. I got a lower back pain on the right side of my back … I know I went to the gym Monday, and Tuesday morning I had this horrible pain. I don’t know what the heck I did. But today I went to the gym later during the day and while working out, my sister in law came talk to me at the gym. She came to talk to me and we chatted for a good time and indeed had a great time. I’m so thankful to God that I’m good friends with all my wife’s sisters. They like me, I like them and we have a good relationship for over 15 years now. All of them are special to me and I always like to make sure they are being treated nicely when I’m with them.
At sundown, I took my son to the mountain, we ate pizza and prayed. My daughter went to stay with her grandma and cousins till Friday morning. So … with that being said … I think I’m gonna take advantage … and plan to wake up late tomorrow around 7:30 AM.
That’s it for today my friends. Let me prepare your heart by telling you that tomorrow will be my last update here. My wife is coming back home with our Leo and my experience as a “single dad” comes to a close. But hey, come back here tomorrow by the evening around 11 pm or so. There will be an update for you.
So this blog post is coming to a wrap. But I will be posting new blog posts here weekly somehow, don’t worry :)
I won’t leave you orphan :)
Day 9 October 5th
7:00 AM: I woke up just so good. My back stopped hurting and I feel great. Got the breakfast ready for me and my son and then, got dressed up to leave one of my cars at the car detailing shop.
I’ll be selling this car. It’s funny that I have one luxury car and then an old car. The old car I use to do grocery and go places nearby and this haha is the car I like the most lol
For some very weird reasons … thieves are coming after my old car. Almost every night the car alarm goes off with theft attempts.
For this very reason, I’m just selling this car. I’m tired of this no jokes. While I was in Florida last September, someone attempted to steal the car and when they saw they couldn’t, they got a huge rock and smashed the car. One year ago, two guys came underneath my old car and stole the catalytic converter.
People keep coming after this car, all the freaking time lol Everything that comes to my hands becomes very successful and precious I guess! It’s a freaking 2008 Toyota Prius! Nothing special. I bought it from a friend 5k in cash. I bought it because I wanted to just take the car to go around the city doing basic stuff, instead of using my luxury car. But at this point, I think I’ll be selling this car and I’ll probably be buying another luxury car lol this is hilarious
9:00 AM: I’m at the car detailing shop and they’re cleaning up the whole car and making it look nice for sale. I offered them to get this paid now before the service is done, but they said I could do it at the end. I didn’t get that but anyways, I know I’m in good hands. I’m checking my finances and I’m feeling in my heart right now to just narrow all the ministries that I’m blessing financially, to only one, besides Prophetic Bread. There’s a special blessing for us when we bless the house that is actually feeding us.
9:20 PM: We’re coming to a wrap up, my dear incognito spies! Today I had to put our home together since my wife is arriving tonight with Leo, and my son helped me on this big time.
Conclusion: My conclusion about these 9 days of being a single dad is that …. honestly my friends … my children are no way my number 1 top priority. As much as I love them, my list of priority goes as follows: a) GOD b) Anna, my wife c) Children.
As much as I know I’m a loving father, for me this is a way to set up boundaries. My kids won’t come before their mom, and both won’t come before my God.
If in a multiverse, I was a single dad for real, my top priority would be: First My God, and then these kids.
And if it happened, that in this multiverse, I had to remarry again, That would be FIRST GOD, Second their stepmom and then my children.
I’m super two feet on the ground regarding leadership. The moment we let our children cross the boundaries and be above our set of CORE VALUES, we are DOOMED. It’s a perfect script for a total disaster. Focusing on children only and prioritizing them above everything else, is a death sentence between a man and a woman's relationship.
I like being successful. To be successful, we must have boundaries. Even inside our own home and family. This is what I learned during these days: I’m love and Order. (L-o-v-e and order)
God called me to lead this family. I am the leader. They are not. I submit myself to God in partnership with my wife, and we guide these kids on what to do. This is my forever mindset regarding my children and only God is able to get this changed.
It was great giving you updates during my days, and also I had a lot of fun writing. Keep in mind that even though this is my last update on this post, I’ll keep writing every week with new content and blog posts on different topics.
Thank you so much for reading my stuff and being here with me somehow. I pray that your birthday this year will be different. I pray that your life will change. I pray that GOD WILL GIVE YOU THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART! NO MATTER WHAT! I pray in accordance with you and ask God with you to give you this desire you have.
Be blessed! And never forget …
God speaks and He lives!
